Back when I first began my journey to get healthy…..
….I made a list.
I started it because I think I read in a motivation book somewhere that you if you fail to plan, you plan to fail and if you don’t know where you are going, how will you know when you get there and if you don’t stand for something…..
….you’ll fall for anything.
(total aside: just between us….I think the last one is from a vintage country song).
Whatever. You get the point….which is that sometimes a list of goals….all those hopes and dreams written down in black and white on the back of a coffee-stained envelope….can be a powerful motivator.
I never really told anyone about writing the list down. I think I thought people might think it was silly or inconsequential or not even achievable. And if I failed to plan or didn’t know where I was going or didn’t achieve anything….no one would know. Then I placed in a drawer for months and on a really tough day when Pringle’s cans were calling my name and Oreos were asking me to dance and visions of salsa and chips danced ’round my head….
….I would pull out the list and stare at it.
And set my chin up and my blinders on and straighten my shoulders and brush my teeth.
And it worked every time.
Time passed and I worked toward my goals and so it was that last Friday….
…..those dreams hopped off a coffee-stained piece of paper into reality.
Because I was on a news show called Talk of the Town on Channel 5 in Nashville.
Can we both pause for a moment and let that phrase soak in because I can’t even believe I typed it.
For four glorious minutes on Friday morning I demonstrated how to make a set of wood blocks for fall.
And when the camera started to roll….I stood for just a moment clutching my hands hoping against hope that when I opened my mouth to talk…..
…..a squeak wouldn’t come out.
The host of the show, Meryl, (who is totally amazing and wonderful and has a voice that smiles when she talks) started with an introduction that I couldn’t even hear above the rushing in my ears.
So I waited for my turn to speak and stood there staring at her with my hands clutched even more tightly.
Have you ever ridden a roller coaster and you know how at the very beginning it ticks and ticks and ticks and you open your eyes wide and clutch the edges and hold on and at the very top you pause for just a moment and time seems to stand still?
And then in a whooooooosh you are off and running and the landscape is speeding by and before you know it you are pulling into the station.
That is exactly how being on the news was for me.
One minute I was standing there clutching my hands with a roaring in my ears and the next minute it was over.
And I made it.
I un-clutched my hands and showed how to make the project and laughed when I should and pointed where I needed to point and sounded reasonably intelligent (except for the part where I forgot the word “punctuation”).
It was amazing.
And totally life-changing.
And when I was done and the segment was over and I stood there gathering up my supplies…..
…..and paused for a moment to take it all in.
I was so happy.
The journey to that moment had been full of struggles and challenges and obstacles.
But you know what?
It was worth every piece of broccoli I’ve eaten and every grilled chicken salad I’ve had for supper and every single mile I’ve walked…..
….and every Oreo that stayed in the pantry.
Because at that moment….I felt like I could scale a mountain like Mount Everest.
Like I could accomplish ANYTHING.
The sky was the limit.
And so mentally I took that coffee-stained paper out of the drawer…..
…..and added Everest to the list. 🙂
PS Wait until you see the rest of the list.
PPS If you want to watch the segment on Talk of the Town…… you can see it here.