I love happy endings.

You know.  The ones where the music cues and the stars sparkle and the guy gets the coffee shop girl and together they walk off into the sunset to a life full of cappuccinos and lattes.

I write stories about happy endings.  It’s my specialty.

Like this one.

Or this one.

Or this favoritist of favoritist of all the happy ending stories that ever were.

But the hardest story to write?

The one that leaves your keyboard covered in tears?

The one that makes you question and question over and over and over again with your eyes swollen up like watermelons and your heart so heavy that you can’t pick it up off the floor?

It’s the story where happily ever after is hard to find.

I spent yesterday at the vet.

In the last couple of days, Buddy, our golden, has been having some symptoms that didn’t seem right.

It all happened so fast.

One minute he was fine and then out of the blue everything changed.  I didn’t want to believe there was a problem.  Not for a single minute.

But I knew something was wrong.

Buddy is our jumper.

Our runner.

Our ball-fetcher.

An ever-present friend when you want to walk or run like the wind or cartwheel or roll in the grass or laugh out loud or hug or snuggle for days on the couch.

We rescued him over ten years ago.  Someone had taken him home and then brought him back to the shelter.  He was too much, they said.  He had too much energy and was too rambunctious and too overwhelming.

A dog that was “extra.”

Oh good, we said.  Come home with us.

Yesterday my son, Zack, and I stood in a vet’s office as they ran after test after test and x-ray after x-ray and we waited for the results.

And then?

With sad eyes, the vet told us that our “extra” dog has cancer.

A tough cancer.

A cancer that’s winning.

A cancer that has a grip on him and won’t let go.

We could give him medicine to alleviate some of his symptoms, but truth?  We only had just a little bit longer with Buddy.  I stared in disbelief.  What?  A time frame?  Cancer?  My mind was spinning and swirling and reaching conclusions that were almost unimaginable to me.

I have to be strong, I thought.  I have to keep it together.  

And then I looked over at Zack.

My seventeen-year-old.

My strong, pillar of strength, never-let-them-see-you-sweat, I-got-this-mom, rock of a son with tears welling up in his eyes.

I tried to keep it together.

Truly.

I did.

But right there in the middle of that cold, sterile, waiting room, I melted down.  Tears filled my eyes and spilled over and gut-wrenching sobs came from a place that I didn’t even know existed.  I was so full of sadness that I didn’t know where to put it all.  How could we go on?  How would our family be a family without Buddy?  And then, as I sat there with my tears and my sadness and my head in my hands, I felt a cold nose nudge me.

It was Buddy.

He looked at me with his wise brown eyes and laid his head on my knee.

As if to tell me we would be okay.

As if to tell me we would get through this.

As if to tell me he loved me.

I wish I was as wise as Buddy.

I wish the hurt would stop hurting.

I wish I could understand.

Maybe one day.

edited to add:  Zack just read the post and asked me if I could clarify a few things.  

1.  Even though he is part of our family, Buddy is Zack’s dog.  Always and forever.

2.  Zack also wanted me to mention that he did NOT cry first.  He said he saw me crying and that made him tear up. 🙂

 

Comments

  1. Image for Mercy Mercy

    I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of such a treasured pet! They curl up in our hearts and are our sounding boards for anything and everything. I wish I could say something that would ease your pain, but the only thing that really helps is time.

  2. Image for Richella Parham Richella Parham

    Oh, Karianne. My heart breaks for you and your family. Keys on the keyboard? Yes, there are now some on mine. I am so very, very sorry. I think perhaps people who don't have pets just can't understand how much our dogs become part of our families. It's impossible for you to picture your family without Buddy, I know. But you don't have to--Buddy will always be part of your family. All those years at Thistlewood Farms? Buddy was there with you. I'm so glad you have photos! And his memory will forever have a place in your hearts, so that he will never really be completely gone. But I know those thoughts don't give much comfort as you grieve. So I'll just cry with you. Bless you, sweet sister.

    1. Image for Diane Miller Diane Miller

      KariAnne, my heart echoes Richella's, tears included. Five times now... and each hurt was unimaginable. Since we were not blessed with human babies, our fur babies were our special treasures. Lifting you up in prayer and trusting our heavenly Father to hold you tight. xo

    1. Image for Benita Benita

      May the beautiful memories you have shared with Buddy comfort your heart & lift your spirit . So sorry for your loss,

  3. Image for Karen Karen

    I am sorry about Buddy 😥 My “old guy” who is now 12 isn’t feeling well either . It so wonderful to have them “long”...... and so painful at the end. Thinking about your family ... I know you have many sweet Buddy memories ;)

  4. Image for Debby Daniels Debby Daniels

    In 42+ years of marriage, we have loved and cared for six dogs. We lost the last three within 18 months of each other. Even a year later, my throat closes and my eyes well up when I think about them (like right now!) Buddy knows you love him and won’t let him suffer. He’s had a wonderful life. That’s the best gift that you could have ever given him.

  5. Image for Dawn Dawn

    Tears are streaming down my face as I read this and my heart aches for y'all. I'm so sorry for your family's loss, Karianne.

  6. Image for Caroline Caroline

    Can hardly see what I am writing bc of my tears. My heart aches for your sweet family. And the inevitably of losing one of our own fur babies is more than I can bare. Prayers for all of you and a big hug for Buddy ... an angel that has blessed you with his unconditional love. 🙏🏻

  7. Image for Karen Karen

    "The righteous one takes care of his domestic animals"~Proverbs 12:10a We are caretakers of animals and sometimes that care involves end of life decisions, that while difficult are in the best interest of the animal. While we have them we love them and they love us in return. That is a great gift. Your family were wonderful caretakers. My sympathies to you and your family.

  8. Image for Melanie Melanie

    I am so sorry for your loss. We lost the last of our three dogs a week before thanksgiving and it still hurts and I cried as I read your story. It never is easy and no words can take the hurt and pain away. They truly leave paw prints on our hearts and I hope you find peace and healing in all of the wonderful memories that you have of your beloved friend he was so lucky to have your family in his wonderful life.

  9. Image for Sherry Sherry

    I’m so sorry. A beloved pet is so very hard to say goodbye to. I’m trying hard to write the perfect words to comfort you, but they are not coming to mind.😢

  10. Image for Joy Pinkerton Joy Pinkerton

    I’m crying with you. Our fur babies are so sweet and so special. Love on him while you have him. ♥️🙏🎄

  11. Image for Louise Cassino Louise Cassino

    I am So Sorry to hear of your very Sad news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Family during what I know is a very difficult time. Louise

  12. Image for Sue Sue

    Tears are welling as I write this because I’ve been hoping that our beloved shepherd will live through Christmas. He has cancer too. My husband and I have agreed that as long as he can get to his feet and isn’t in any pain.... it just breaks our hearts and will be a horrible day when we have to make that final decision. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  13. Image for Rose Rose

    Oh Karianne I know just how you feel. We had to put our sweet kitty down 2 yrs ago and I sobbed like a baby. We had her for 17 yrs and it broke my heart. Will pray for peace in your heart and all the memories you will talk about Wishing you and your family a peaceful Christmas Much love ❤️ Rose 🎄

  14. Image for Michelle mcdonald Michelle mcdonald

    I'm very sorry to hear this. Our "buddy" is Lucy. She was diagnosed with cancer almost 2.5 years ago! Like you, I was so scared and so upset because I had been with Lucy for 12 years. I didn't want to go the invasive surgery route because it was in her throat, and that dog loves to eat so much, I thought it would be cruel to take away her one final pleasure. Instead, I jumped on the computer and did all kinds of research and decided to take her off of corn gluten grain products, which by the way her dog food was full of! Within a few weeks she started breathing better – within a few months her coat was shinier, and she acted just fine! When we took her back to the vet, the tumor had shrunk!! I'm not saying it's a cure for cancer, but we definitely were able to shrink it – and guess what? Lucy still with us. Every day is a blessing. I thought we were only going to have her a few more months, instead I've had her a few more years! Look into it it definitely won't hurt.

  15. Image for Michelle Michelle

    Oh my, this brought back years of memories, yes and the tears too, with all the rescues I've had, even horses. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. But you gave your sweet Buddy a place of happiness. A place where he could be his exuberant self and know that he is loved -- something he might never have had had you all not taken him home. That's the very best we rescuers can give them, however long they're with us.

  16. Image for Denise Cox Denise Cox

    Oh KariAnne, I am so very sorry to hear of your sad news! I had to put my MinPin to sleep in Aug. of 2013 as she became so ill from inflammatory bowel disease. Even after a year my grief was so irreconcilable that a friend bought me a chihuahua puppy. I love Maddie to pieces!!! You and your family are in my thoughts. Remember, someday you will meet your family friend over that rainbow in the heavens...

  17. Image for Gail Gail

    Losing a pet is heart breaking. When they become part of your family and your kids best friend. Wishing you a smile. Buddy would want that.. I bet he was happiest when you were all laughing. Here is a hug. Cry and get it all out.

  18. Image for Yvonne Shafer Yvonne Shafer

    Sobbing here. We just lost our buddy, Blue. I know how it hurts. Remember that all dogs go to heaven. Take time to grieve. Warm hugs coming your way.

  19. Image for Terri Terri

    Tears are pouring ... What a beautiful friend and companion he must be ...... this is bringing back so many wonderful memories of our precious Gracie.. our beloved Schnauzer that we had with us for 16 years.....she too was diagnosed with cancer.... Even though she was old in "Doggie" years... she still was the "Belle" of the ball.... the lifter of our spirits.... a bundle of joy always!! She has been gone for about 3 years now and I still miss her so.......We certainly get attached to our fur babies... I am so sorry KariAnne .. prayers of comfort for you and your precious family...

  20. Image for Raquel Raquel

    So sad for your family. These sweet critters are so integral to a home. We rescued an “extra” too and she’s now in her 14th year. I don’t want to think of our home without her. Hugs to you, Buddy and all the family.

  21. Image for Patty Patty

    Karianne, with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat I am grieving for you and your family. Words just cannot express how deep the hurt goes when we lose our pets. Buddy is so beautiful! Our Madden died in June from cancer and I still expect him to be at the door waiting for me when I get home - tears still come at such odd times. I'm just so sorry for your family - there are many who will grieve for you and lift you all up in prayer.

  22. Image for Michele (Finch Rest) Michele (Finch Rest)

    Oh, dang it. Freaking ouch, KA. . Please give Buddy some gentle pets and love from Blogdom for us. I'll pray for Zack and you all. It's difficult for sure with these tough decisions to make.

  23. Image for Carrie Carrie

    Keeping you and the family in prayer. Such a difficult time. Fur babies are family. When they hurt, we hurt. So much sadness with this diagnosis. So very sorry.

  24. Image for susan b susan b

    I just read this and am sitting here with tears in my eyes at work. This brings back such sad memories of our dog Ryley. The cancer struck very quickly and the decisions are so hard to make. I didn't want to tell my kids when they were away at college because I knew it would be traumatic for them. They made the drive home from college one evening and said "what's up?" - apparently they had a "feeling" they needed to come home. Thank God they did - we all had a good cry and they got to say their goodbyes. Sending prayers for your family.....

  25. Image for Gina Gina

    Tears are streaming down my face. This sounds exactly like my son and (new) daughter-in-law’s story about their Golden back in April. Fur babies are such a big part of our lives. Prayers to you all.

  26. Image for Brenda Brenda

    We lost our Westie of nine years in July of this year. He had a liver issue and was in a lot of pain so we had to put him to sleep. Hardest thing we had to do....He was like a little human. He went everywhere with us and everyone that saw him fell in love with him. My husband and I are still struggling with his loss. We want to get another Westie and we know we can’t replace him, but every time we start looking for one we say”no” not now. I know exactly how you feel and it is hard to give them up. I am just sitting here with tears rolling down my face. I will be thinking of you and your family as you go through this tough time.

  27. Image for NormaJean NormaJean

    Even though we know when we adopt those furry little bundles of love, that someday we will probably have to say goodbye, it's never easy. I am so sorry that you and your family are having to experience this. Perhaps, in the near future, another furry little bundle of love will adopt you, and help to ease (but never replace) the loss of your sweet friend.

  28. Image for Amy K Amy K

    That pain is all too real. We lost our beloved Boston 2 days before Thanksgiving. She was an old girl - 14 years by our side. It was one of the hardest things we've every had to do as a family. Now life is very different. She is not there waiting when we get home. Such a void. Time heals though. For now - she is forever on my mind. The pain is real - but so are the memories! My heart breaks for you and your family.

  29. Image for Deb Wostmann Deb Wostmann

    So very sorry for your loss. Goldens are such goofy and special pups. We have a ten year old girl, Reese, who is the epitome of a goofy golden. My heart aches for you and your family. Buddy will live on through the many memories you made with him and the wonderful life you were able to give him. Hugs to you all.

  30. Image for Cyndie Cyndie

    Oh Karianne, my heart breaks for you and your family. Tears started flowing not even halfway through your story (and I just knew seeing the first picture of your daughter with Buddy) as words cannot express the loss of a dear, sweet pet. I'm sure these posts are difficult to read but I hope you feel the compassion and love pouring forth on these pages. You're in our collective hearts.

  31. Image for Monique Monique

    I’m so sorry for this. I worry about this day as well, but the worst is seeing your kids suffer. That would be the dam breaker for me as well. Good luck, and wishing you happier days.

  32. Image for Debra Matcovich Debra Matcovich

    I'm so sorry for your sadness. Only a dog owner knows the feeling when you leave the vet with devastating news. My family lost our beloved Shit Tzu, Romeo in July. We fought a seven month battle with kidney disease. He told us when it was time. Christmas time is probably the worst time, not that any time is better then others. Going in my attic to get the stockings and seeing Romeo's was tough. The only thing my husband told me, is to think of all the joy and unconditional love he gives you.

  33. Image for Lisa Lisa

    A beloved dog is a precious thing and it is so hard to let them go. Buddy will let you know when it's time and you will be able to give him the gentle goodbye that you all deserve. You will grieve, and hopefully the happy memories will be what you cherish most in his absence. And someday another dog will capture your hearts and bring you joy, and Buddy would want that for you. We know when they come into our lives that their time is short compared to ours, it's the quality of the life they live that matters. So love him to the moon and back and make his last days as full of joy and all the things he loves most and know that you have been blessed, as he has.

  34. Image for Diane Diane

    I am so sorry to read this, over Thanksgiving we lost our 15 year old pug. She was my soul mate, always with me, always near me, so very hard to lose!! They are so special!!

  35. Image for Pam Bezirdjian Pam Bezirdjian

    I'm so sorry about your Buddy! We had to put to sleep our Buddy, a rescue black lab mix, about 2 years ago because of cancer. And it was really, really hard! He was a big part of our family and there were so many memories of Buddy with our boys growing up. It wasn't good timing but one of our son's brought home a puppy during Buddy's last weeks with us and it was like Buddy was passing on the torch to the new dog. He was letting us know it would be okay. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

  36. Image for Laura Laura

    Sending prayers from Colorado. There will come a day when your memories bring laughter and not tears. Look for the sign Buddy will send you when he reaches the Rainbow Bridge. It will bring you so much comfort. Love, laura

  37. Image for Jeannie Jeannie

    I am so sorry to hear of your sad loss. We too, lost our golden retriever back in March ; Lyme's disease. 8 years before that, I lost another golden retriever, that one to cancer. Golden's have more cancer than any other breed, about 50%. It breaks your heart. The intense pain of losing your beloved pet comes from the pure, sinless, unconditional love that they give you day after day. May God console you and your family in your grief.

  38. Image for Lee Oliverio Lee Oliverio

    So sorry, and now I am crying with you and thinking about our Lady whom we lost many years ago. Buddy will always be close in your thoughts and sweet memories. Hugs and prayers for you all!

  39. Image for Claudia A Claudia A

    NOOOOOO! I just came back to your blog after a long absence and now this....I'm bawling my eyes out. Yes I'm that person. The one that, anything can happen in the movies, just as long as the dog lives. I have my family trained to click past channels that show abandoned animals or any cruelty to them. Oh girly my heart is just breaking. 💔💔💔

  40. Image for Susie Susie

    We too went thru this same scenario a year ago. We all truly loved our Lexi and everyone including my brave smart husband let the tears roll. We all cried for days and can still tear up when certain memories come to mind. However time does help and she will always hold a special place in our hearts.

  41. Image for Katherine Katherine

    I am so sorry for you and your family. We had a similar experience with our rescue dog (from Kentucky!) in October and it was one of the most difficult days I’ve had. I felt a fool because he was “just a dog,” but boy did we feel empty and sad - kids and adults alike. As hard as it was to say goodbye, we knew our lives would not have been as full or as happy if we hadn’t taken a chance on him. Sympathy and prayers for you, your family and Buddy.

  42. Image for Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces

    Oh KariAnne. I am so sorry to hear this news...it is such a heartbreaking time for a family. Pets are so much a part of the family and SO loved. We lost our sweet Bailey to cancer in March and my husband and I both sobbed our hearts out at the vet. I so understand the deep sadness. Sending shared tears and love your way, sweet friend. xoxox

  43. Image for elizabeth@pinecones and acorns blog elizabeth@pinecones and acorns blog

    I am heartbroken for your as are all of your readers. There is nothing like the love of a dog. My Munchen had cancer as well. Much like you we knew something wasn't right and when we went to the vet he said she is old and we are not going to run a bunch of tests, something is wrong and we are just going to wait until she lets you know it is time. The hardest day of my life was taking my baby to be put to sleep and much like your Buddy she let me know it was of and it was time. I am not sure if your Buddy is already gone, if not hug him tight, love him and create as many memories as you can. When its time he will let your know. Its been 2 years since I lost my little old girl and I still miss her and I still cry. Take care, you are in my thoughts and prayers. As is Buddy who has had a wonderful life with you and your family.

  44. Image for Teresa Ann Harral Teresa Ann Harral

    Oh KariAnn, thanks for sharing your moments of saddness as well as joy. It is both part of life. If we love deeply we must also feel deeply. Hugs!!!

  45. Image for Leslie Watkins Leslie Watkins

    Oh, friend. I'm feeling the gut wrenching with you here. I'm so very sorry. It's so hard losing a family member. We have had 17 years since our last playful family member and just haven't been able to add another one because of the grief losing leaves behind. Hugs, love and prayers for you this morning. For all of you.

  46. Image for PC PC

    I am so sorry to hear this - my thoughts and prayers are with all of you. The loss of a family pet is very hard. 4 years ago we walked this path and I know how it feels.

  47. Image for Mary Mary

    I'm so, so very sorry. Buddy knows how much you and your family loves him and he will always be with you. It's so hard to say goodbye. Prayers for you and your family.

  48. Image for Stephanie Wethington Stephanie Wethington

    Karianne, I am so sad to hear the news about your sweet Buddy. Fur babies are definitely a part of our family. It is hard to lose one. Love and prayers for all of you this morning.

  49. Image for Pam Kaufman Pam Kaufman

    This happened to us 2 1/2 years ago and it still feels like yesterday. Maybe a little softer around the edges and the tears are not flowing as hard, but they are still there. Our beloved cat Molly was only 12 when she died. She seemed to be her normal self until Easter weekend. She wasn't eating like normal, she was distancing herself from us. Staying in the bedroom, under a chair which was totally not like her. And she was purring ALOT for no reason. She wasn't the friendliest cat in the world but she had to be near us most of the time. At first I was in denial. She's okay. She's just getting older and needs more alone time. Look she's purring, she has to be okay, right? I googled why a cat would purr alot for no reason and found out they do that when they are in pain. We took her to the vet "just to make sure" and that's when our world fell apart. She had congestive heart failure. She was only using 20% of her lungs. She was full of fluid. She only had 2, maybe 3 weeks left. We were numb. We were speechless. It was awful. My daughter and I started bawling. We had to make a choice. Let her go home and pass away or "put her to sleep". It was such a hard decision to make on the spur of the moment but we chose the 2nd option. While it was hard we knew she was in a lot of pain and we didn't want her to suffer anymore. I'm crying writing this. I'm crying for our loss and for the pain I know your family is feeling right now. It is as sad to lose our furry family members as it is a human family member (at least to some of us). I feel for you and I pray for you during this terrible time.

  50. Image for Renee @ Living 511 Renee @ Living 511

    Karianne, I am so very sorry to hear about Buddy. I know the feeling all to well. We said goodbye to our little Oreo in July 2016. It seems like yesterday and I remember every moment of his last two days. Although, we knew the day was coming near, he took a turn for the worse quickly and we had to make the decision much sooner than we thought. It was one of the hardest things I had to do in my adult life. Letting go was so very hard but learning to live without him was even harder. I do not have any children of my own and Oreo filled that void for me. I know the hurt, pain and grief that comes with saying goodbye. My heart breaks for you and your family. Buddy will let you know when it is time. They always do. Until then, love on him as much as you can and cherish every moment that you spend with him. Love and prayers!

  51. Image for Bonnie Bonnie

    KariAnne, I'm so sorry to hear this about Buddy. I'm praying that the Lord will comfort you and your sweet family.

  52. Image for Susan Susan

    KariAnne, this post breaks my heart. My 2 Pembroke Welsh Corgis are here with me in a way that only pet people understand.......many years ago I decided that we would always have 2 of them, so the inevitable void would be easier to bear........every time we lose one of the Corgis everyone (especially the one left behind) grieve for that loss. I hope your hearts fill with the love that Buddy left you.....

  53. Image for Tracey Tracey

    I'm so sorry for the terrible news about Buddy. Goldens are known for their high energy and sweet temperament. And they are so, so lovable. You and your family are in my prayers.

  54. Image for Stacey Stacey

    I'm so sorry KariAnne!! Truly...we've been through it too and there's something about it being your kid's dog that makes it extra hard. I wish we could fix this for you but I hope it helps to know there are others who understand.

  55. Image for Julie Hearn Julie Hearn

    My heart is with yours. Right before Labor Day we had to make the awful choice to have our 15 year old Westie put down. Even though we had 15 years, it wasn't nearly long enough. They are the members of our families that truly love unconditionally.

  56. Image for Julie Briones Julie Briones

    Praying for you and your fam right now. KariAnne, I know HE's got this, even if you feel you don't. Our Lord is an ever present source of comfort and love during these times. I'm thankful that He gave you all such a wonderful pet for so many years. Thankful that Buddy has so many people that love him so dearly. Thankful you know a Lord who loves you more than anything, and that He will be glorified through this season of your life! Hugs... big, long hugs.

  57. Image for Barrie Seifert Barrie Seifert

    Much love to your whole family. We had a Buddy too. He was the funniest Beagle. Then cancer got him 2 years ago. On Good Friday when my son was home from Colorado for Easter, my very best friend also my vet came to our house where we all got to snuggle Buddy on his way to pain free happy living. I still think about him Every. Single. Day. XOXO

  58. Image for Laura Harrie Laura Harrie

    I was sitting reading your post on Buddy, as my husband was leaving with one of our Goldens, for a checkup. I needed to hold the collar of his brother, as my husband left the house. Gus, has sat at the front door looking out waiting for them to come back. Our pets make us a family and we need them to be healthy and happy. So sorry for this time in Buddy's life that the diagnosis has made to your family and the sadness from the news. May God comfort, guide and give you peace during this difficult time.

  59. Image for janpartist janpartist

    Aw, gee, that is sad and I'm so sorry. My granddog, a golden, had bone cancer at the age of 4 also. It broke our hearts.

  60. Image for Sue Sue

    Tears are streaming down my face. I am at work, but I don't care. I want you to know that the love of a dog is something so very very special. He will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge, when it is time, and you will both cross into heaven together. AND dog is God spelled backward. That was not a mistake when that happened.. Thank you for sharing, and blessing on you and your family and your golden.

  61. Image for Beth Burr Beth Burr

    My heart breaks for you. I had to read your story twice. You see, we were recently in your shoes twice in the last two years, and also with goldens, and also with Cancer. The pain stays and is just heartbreaking. We tried hard with our first to save her with surgery, chemo, radiation. She was such a trooper. They didn't even have to put her asleep for her ultrasounds because she was so well trained, she would be so still on the table for them. She knew the vet techs loved her. We gained another glorious 22 months with her. VSNT in Dallas (Dr King) is a cancer expert for dogs. He was wonderful and has a golden also. He knew how we felt. He knew our hearts were fearful. We thought we had it beat, but 3 months later, and just out of remission we lost her. The horrible cancer had moved to other organs, and our hearts throbbed with the fear again. We took her in again and there we lost her on the cold floor at the vets office. I hated the day. Hardest ever. A year later (just this last August a year and one week since we lost our Shelby, we lost her brother, our Reagan, and also a golden. Our vets told us that they knew he was a kindred spirit the minute they looked into his eyes. They said he had heart and the kindest soul, like so many, and probably just like your Buddy. I so dread cancer, and especially for our furr family members. It's hard. Harder then it should ever be. Thankfully we were able to get paw prints, and keep their remains in very special cedar boxes in the family room on a shelf of prominence with their pictures. I touch them every time I walk by to let them know we know they are there. Oh, how I loved those goldens, and oh, how we miss them every single day. I'm so sorry for you Kari and your entire family, and especially with Christmas so near! Our prayers and thoughts are with all of you. Wish I could give you hug (if hugs would be welcome from a "golden" fan).

  62. Image for Diane Diane

    I am so sorry! Losing our furry family members is so devastating! May your special love and memories of Buddy warm your hearts and give you all strength, comfort and peace.

  63. Image for sandi sandi

    KA, I am "walking w/you today in sorrow." Tomorrow we will walk, one again, in joy, but for today, let us live our grief deeply. There is, imbedded within it's context, a grace not yet apparent. It is only in embracing our losses that we find their meaning. Big hugs to you & each of your family.

  64. Image for Brenda Brenda

    I am so very sorry Karianne! One week ago today I put down my 13+ year old golden. I took Mabel in as a hospice dog. She had been neglected and then abandoned to die. She ended up at nearby rescue and we took her in to make her last days happy and comfortable. A ‘few days’ turned into 10 weeks. I fell hard for my blind, deaf, cancer ridden girl. I managed to keep it together until I read your post. My heart is breaking for your family. Prayers going up for all of you. 💕

  65. Image for Colleen Parker Colleen Parker

    I am so so sorry....these sweet precious generous pets of ours.....they give so much that when it's time to go, they leave the biggest of holes. Sending much love....

  66. Image for Donnie Donnie

    Oh, now I am crying, too! So, so sorry. Such a hard and painful decision. We have been through it and it just plain hurts. that unconditional love that our pets provide is beyond words. I've said a prayer for comfort for all of you as you go through this tough time. There is no easy way, you just push through. Just remember what love he felt from all of you - he was special and blessed, and in turn, you all were, as well.

  67. Image for Jackie Jackie

    I’m so sorry KariAnne. Sending love and hugs to your family. Buddy sounds like a sweet dog and the pictures are just precious.

  68. Image for Pamela Griner Pamela Griner

    Oh my...I am so very sorry. We lost our sweet, well-behaved, calm Cassie a year and a half ago....but crazy, lovable, rambunctious, shelter dog, Coco, has helped us fill the huge hole in our lives. I want to believe precious Cassie will meet me in Heaven. My heart goes out to you.

  69. Image for bobbie bobbie

    Oh my goodness ~ I am sitting here with tears streaming... My heart and thoughts are with you and your family, and of course with Buddy. You said he is a rescue; I believe that digs rescue us. Please consider yourselves very hugged ~ bobbie

  70. Image for Libby Libby

    I'm so, so sorry about Buddy. We had exactly the same situation happen to us a few months ago with our daughter's Dutch Shepherd service dog, Sasha. Just reading your post brings all those feelings back and, again, I don't know how we are living with the pain of losing such a big part of our family. I still think she's going to walk in every time I hear a tinkle that sounds like her collar, or when I drop crumbs on the floor I realize I'm going to have to clean that up - Sasha won't be following along vacuuming up crumbs! Your family will go on, like ours has, but that gut wrenching pain takes so long to subside. Hugs to all of you!

  71. Image for Gwen Gwen

    My prayers are with you and your family. My family knows this loss. We hold wonderful memories of our precious Golden to this day, 4 years later. The love they give is beyond belief! (Now look at me crying.) You will never forget Buddy and he was a gift!

  72. Image for PJ PJ

    My sympathy to you and your family. This story really hits home. Our Buddy was Sammy the one in a million dog and it was my 24 year old son in tears right along with me. Someone once told me that dogs live the Christian life. How true....they have all the good stuff without the junk. Pets are the best.

  73. Image for Chris Wells Chris Wells

    My heart goes out to you and your family. We lost our Golden to cancer and she wasn’t even 10 years old. One day she was fine running through the woods and jumping in the creek and 27 days later she was gone. Too fast to even wrap your head around. So I know the pain. I do hope now that you are back in Texas, when you feel ready for another dog that you will check out Golden Retriever Rescue of North Texas. They are an amazing organization, check out their web site when you can.

    1. Image for BethB BethB

      I agree Chris. It sounds like you and I hang in the same circles. We have adopted from GRRNT too and they were very helpful and the fosters followed up with us for the first year and have become friends. They are a terrific organization and would have our recommendation also. http://www.goldenretrievers.org/ Karianne, I know you are near us somewhere, just not sure how far. Just watch their link until you see the perfect fit as it will take time. We put in our application and waited and watched until we found our very own cast-away that should have been living with us all along. You'll know what to do when the time is right. The other rescue I can recommend is in Atlanta, and yes I know it is further from you now, but they are especially known for the Turkey Dog (goldens) rescue and are just amazing.. Hope this recommendation be helpful one day. http://adoptagoldenatlanta.com/turkeydogs.asp (you can find their story on You Tube, Good Read: https://styleblueprint.com/atlanta/everyday/lauren-genkinger-faces/ They also are also on facebook. The stories of their rescues are just remarkable. We were approved, and were willing to drive half way across the U.S to Atlanta after several phone and skype interviews if there was a match made in heaven for us. (links for a better day, Karianne. A much better day soon when the sun shines again.)

  74. Image for Judy Judy

    KariAnne: I am so sorry for what you are going through. As it happened to us a couple of years ago with our golden guy, named Buddy. You are right thinking that when he layed his nose on you, he was telling you that it will be OK. And it will. You will never forget. I know, because golden's are such special creatures, but time takes care of the hardest part. But, for now, all you can do is love him and remember every way he has impacted your life. I still miss being able to put my arms around that beautiful neck. As I am writing this, we are waiting to take our little friend that came after Buddy to the vet. We don't know what we will find out, and we say why have we put ourselves through this again? But just do because a dog is just something you want in your life. Take care, Judy

  75. Image for Catherine Catherine

    I'm so very sorry to hear about your dear Buddy. It's always so heartbreaking to lose a companion as sweet and loving and giving of unconditional love. We too have a golden/collie mix (gollie) and she's really the best dog we've ever had and we've had many. Our little cattle dog, Jersey, has an enlarged heart and takes megadoses of heart meds and she's hanging in there. Prayers for Buddy and your family.

  76. Image for Sue Sue

    Karianne, this is so hard for the entire family. So sorry to hear of this diagnosis. Love Buddy and spoil him rotten. My heart is breaking for you.

  77. Image for Debbie Debbie

    Oh my, how my heart goes out to your family. I can still see my husband as her came out the door with our chocolate lab, Molly, in his arms because she was too weak to walk. He was bringing her to me so I could sit in the grass, in her favorite spot in the sun, and hold her as she breathed her last breath. We've buried several rescues over the years, and now find ourselves living with our 13 year-old mini schnauzer in his last days. It will be a while before the memories become comforting, but time is a healer. I'm so sorry for each of you.

  78. Image for Teresa Gonzales Teresa Gonzales

    I had to wait until the tears stopped to write you. You are the second person today with a furbaby that has cancer-undiscovered until visit to vet. Our family has gone through many such furbaby loses-always leaves a hole in your heart. I figure my heart is like swiss cheese now-we have rescued so many over the years. Currently we have 6-aged from 2 years to 19 years. Furbabies offer unconditional love and acceptance and are such a part of the family. I am sorry for your loss and for your family. We figured that we needed to keep loving more and have that love from them. Hugs to you and family.

  79. Image for Teddee Grace Teddee Grace

    They understand better than we do.. I had kept my wonderful Persian cat alive with subcutaneous fluids for an entire year after his kidneys started to fail. He finally went blind and I knew I couldn't indulge myself and keep him alive any longer. He had always slept above my head on my pillow but when he lost his sight he had been unable to jump up on the bed and had stopped doing so. Two days before the appointment to take him to the vet to be put down, I woke up in the night and cried myself to sleep as I'd been doing since I'd made the appointment. A little later I woke up and my Bo was in his favorite spot and mine, on my pillow above my head. He had made that extra effort to comfort me. Please accept my condolences on the loss of your wonderful "extra" dog. Keep an eye out for little signs. He'll still be around.

  80. Image for Lori Lori

    I am so sorry for all of you. Losing a fur-baby is always so hard....and they way they try to comfort us at the end only emphasizes what angels they truly are. Crying right along with you.....and praying for you.

  81. Image for vicki vicki

    I am so, so sorry about your sweet Buddy. For your family, for the many memories shared, and for the secrets (no doubt) shared with Buddy over the years. Prayers for peace and comfort in the days/weeks/month ahead as you and yours celebrate and aide this special family member during this cancer journey.

  82. Image for Calypso in the Country Calypso in the Country

    I am crying with you. I am so sorry you and your family have to go through this. We have a 6 year old golden and she is the love of our lives. It's always in the back of my mind that the breed is prone to cancer and even without that, they don't have long life expectancies. So unfair. A reminder to cherish every moment and enjoy the unconditional love that dogs give. They truly become part of our families and losing them is devastating. My heart breaks for you. Take care. xo Shelley

  83. Image for JC at the uncommon pearl JC at the uncommon pearl

    I'm so, so sorry to hear of cancer for your beloved and loyal Buddy. Dogs bring such love and laughter into a family. Who else would love us so much despite our moods, morning hair, and frazzled minds sometimes? Truly, they are a family treasure. I'm so sorry for your hurting hearts.

  84. Image for Cindy Cindy

    My eyes filled up as we have had our last two dogs die from cancer. One was 4 the other was 11. Both rescues. Both we rescued but both rescued my hubby as he suffers from depression and anxiety. They were his soulmates, hugs and be thankful for the memories but right now, yea doesn’t help much. Hugs from us and our rescue dog now...

  85. Image for Kim Kim

    Hugs to you all ..,there are so many of us know the pain you are going through feeling like the pain will never stop... ever time you come home you expect them to be there or you think that you should take them for a walk or feed them ... endless times a day thinking about them

  86. Image for Lee Lee

    I'm so sorry! It's hearwrenching to lose our fur children. Three years ago my labradoodle, Buddy, received a melanoma diagnosis. Thankfully, there's a canine melanoma vaccine that's miraculous. He lived two more wonderful years before he began to decline, and I had to have him put down last December. I still miss him every day. I'm thinking of y'all here in Kentucky.

  87. Image for Eilis@MyHeartLivesHere Eilis@MyHeartLivesHere

    I'm so sorry that this is how it turned out. Our family was in the same place place six months ago. It's just really hard. Buddy was a very lucky pup to live with you and your family. He knew he was loved.

  88. Image for Debbie Debbie

    Oh Karianne, I'm so sorry. I had the same thing happen to my Raven - one day fine - although a little slower at 13 and the next day the vet said we needed to put her down. She was our 3rd in just a 1-1/2 years. That was 12 years ago and I still haven't gotten over Raven. She, as well as Max & Christie are still in my heart with very precious memories. It will get easier. Hugs to you ;) debbie

  89. Image for Michele @ Thistledown Domestic Creations Michele @ Thistledown Domestic Creations

    I'm soooo sorry sweet friend. I too am dealing with a beloved dog that has cancer. My Dale has a large tumor growing back on her upper right leg that can no longer be operated on. I look at her every day and I tear up. Our pets truly become part of our family and we love them unconditionally like they love us. Just know that you and your family are in my prayers. Hugs and love to you all.

  90. Image for Janet Janet

    Oh there are no words...as I sit here with my 9 year old dog I can't...even...imagine! We've had 4 goldens in my neighborhood have the same sudden onset of "just not right" with the same diagnosis. Some dig chemo to prolong the inevitable (said they wouldn't do it again) and two lived longer than they expected with only pain meds. The only comfort I can offer is that Buddy has lived a well lived loving life and that he will ALWAYS be a part of all of you. Take the time to process and love Buddy with whatever time he has left. Prayers for all of you ❤️

  91. Image for Marisa Franca @ All Our Way Marisa Franca @ All Our Way

    I am so sorry! I saw all the lovely comments and almost didn't leave one -- but I couldn't act as if I hadn't read of your family's pain. The hardest decision is making one to let go -- it's not easy, it's not fair, it's downright crappy. We had a wonderful vet and staff -- after we lost our pet they sent us a card and a lovely poem. I would love to send it to you, only if you want. Yes! It made me cry but it gave me comfort. Let me know. Love and hugs!!

  92. Image for Heather Medema Heather Medema

    I am so very sorry for you all. We lost our big beautiful yellow Lab Luke last year to cancer. Our rescue baby, we shared eight and a half beautiful years before pre-dental cleaning blood work stopped us in our tracks. It's been a little over a year but I miss his velvety head and thumping tail every minute of the day. We just don't get to enjoy them for enough. Wishingace and strength as you heal your broken hearts. 💓 💓

  93. Image for Debra Debra

    They give us their all everyday, especially their love. I believe it's because of this that they go to heaven long before us.

  94. Image for Deborah Deborah

    Karianne, As I sit here reading your news regarding Your Buddy, I want to express my deepest condolences of his illness. He has been a loyal companion and best buddy to your family. It brings tears streaming down my face as you see, I am going to be facing the same dilemma in the near future. My Misty girl is 15 and a “Beardie” who rocks my world and along with being my constant companion since we rescued her from a puppy mill 13.5 years ago. She has began to have declining health and losing use of her legs. As much as I sympathize with you we need to realize how dedicated, loving and compassionate friend they have been to us, I have always said the world would be a better place if humans acted more like our furry loved ones. You will be in my prayers to help you through this difficult time. Love and prayers, Debbie

  95. Image for Vaughna K Vaughna K

    It is such a yucky feeling of loss. You'll find yourself feeling ridiculous for crying at the weirdest times. I had not grieved one of my pets for like 7 years....then, our newest adopted pet found his chew toy. It was covered in mud because he loved burying things under our rose bush. I lost it.....again! You loved your pup well, no doubt. You made your "extra" feel like family and that is huge! I'm so sorry. It does hurt. Cyber hug to all of you.

  96. Image for Charley Charley

    My brother's golden has cancer. They told him it 'would be any day now' when his dog was diagnosed. That was 2 years ago and he's still playing like a puppy, just a little bit slower.

  97. Image for PJ PJ

    So very sorry, KariAnne. Our dogs are truly family members, and the sadness we feel when they are sick or hurting is profound. Sending warm hugs your way...

  98. Image for Carol Claremont Carol Claremont

    Sending hugs to your family - this is one of the hardest things you will ever go through. Enjoy your remaining time with him - give him lots of cheeseburgers and whatever he wants. When you have dogs you love, it hurts like hell when you have to let them go (we know this times 5). I will tell you what helps me - you are going to be sad when he goes, whether it is today or a month or a year from now - your feelings will still be the same. However, you are not doing this for yourself; you are doing this for Buddy. He is the one whose feelings count. right now an him not having pain or suffering is what matters the most. Our vet always says - better a few weeks too early than even one minute too late. She also says she has never had one person say to her that they should have waited longer but dozens who have said they waited too long. Love on him as I know you will and just cherish every minute you still have with him. Hugs!

  99. Image for Lisa Marutz Lisa Marutz

    A sweet friend told me, when I was facing the same terrible decision you faced, that it our gift to our fur babies, to quietly and peacefully let them go and release all of their pain. They know we love them, and they trust us to let them go.

  100. Image for Cathie Cathie

    So sorry about Buddy. Our pets are our unconditional friends. They make us smile when it is to hard to think about smiling, and like Buddy did for you lets you know it is okay to be sad, but you will be okay. Many caring thoughts coming your way.

  101. Image for Ann C Ann C

    Lots of words have been expressed by many who have lost their own dogs. Words of empathy and sincere sympathy. So many so much more articulate that me, so I will just say a prayer for all of you. And a reminder that memories can't be taken from you. Soon you will share memories of dumb stuff Buddy did and laugh and then pause with a few tears, and the healing begins. God bless you all.

  102. Image for Marijean Jenson Marijean Jenson

    So sorry dear friend. I almost didn’t read this, but what the heck, everyone needs a good cry every now and then. I’m truly heartbroken for you and your family. Love and hugs to you all.

  103. Image for Kathy Hughes Kathy Hughes

    😭I’m so sorry for the sadness you are going through. Death is a part of life, but it is almost unbearable to lose our dear pets. You are so descriptive, and through your words, you have brought my own past losses to mind—-many precious dogs that brought much love to my life. May thoughts of Buddy soon bring only smiles to you and your family.

  104. Image for Debra Debra

    KariAnne, so sorry to hear that you and your family are facing the loss of a dearly beloved family member—and even if they are “pets” they are still family members. It’s a hard journey; a book by Nancy Tillman, the heaven of animals, with her beautiful illustrations comforted me many times in this past year. Praying for comfort for your family, from the great Comforter as you and your family travel this road.

  105. Image for Rebecca Rebecca

    Karianne, I am so sad for all who love Buddy! A similar event happened to us about a year and a half ago with our rescue, precious for 14+ years coon hound-ish dog, Chloe. I bawled and I held her hand in mine and they put her to sleep. I am crying now as I write this. It’s just not the same house without that welcome every single time you walk in the room. But, like you, I have wonderful photos of her and they help remember when she was healthy and a free spirit, as most hounds tend to be. I still miss her but have no regrets. We gave her all the love we had for her time with us. Maybe someday I will rescue someone else (yes, Chloe was my person). Know that my heart aches for you and your family. Sending prayers your way!

  106. Image for Kelly Cetro Kelly Cetro

    We lost our beloved Abigail on 11/8 and our hearts are so broken. We love our pets like family - I’m so sorry for the loss in your family, Buddy was a special part of your life.

  107. Image for Janet Janet

    My heart is breaking for you and your family. We also lost our golden Shadow to cancer. He was seven years old whe he rescued us and died suddenly at nine. We didn’t know he had cancer until the tumor ruptured and he was bleeding internally. I laid on the floor in the Veteraniann’s office sobbing into his soft fur and told him how much we loved him as he left us. They are our heart and it is gut wrenching to lose them. Big hugs to all your family and I am deeply sorry you are going through this.

  108. Image for Nancy Nancy

    Sweet friend, I am so sorry for your loss. It's amazing that an animal can bring such joy into our lives. Feeling sad for you and your family. Praying for you. Nancy

  109. Image for Sherri Sherri

    I am so sorry... my eyes are leaving tears on my keyboard, now...our old doggy laying next to me on her bed... I can't even imagine our life without her... so... I can't even begin to imagine the pain you are feeling... I am so sorry... some people might say it sounds foolish to say "ill be praying for you and your family" over the news/loss of a pet... but as we know... those of us who have animals... they are not a pet at all.. they are family... they are so loyal... they love us unconditionally,,,, they are always there to greet us...... they remind me abit of a God who loves us always, and is there for us always... praying for you

  110. Image for Brenda Brenda

    So sorry. Will Rogers once said, " If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die I want to go where they went." Buddy will be waiting for all of you in Heaven. Ready to run, jump, walk, or just rest his head on your knee again. Take care! Brenda

  111. Image for Anissa Carlisle Anissa Carlisle

    I had a chihuahua for 8 years when she developed cancer in her front leg joint. She went from jumping on and off furniture and romping through the yard to having her leg removed. I have a great vet and we wrapped the leg to give her extra support but exactly 2 years later I was forced to put her to put her to sleep. It was devastating but I had her creamated. She was a dear friend.

  112. Image for susan susan

    The House Dog's Grave (Haig, an English bulldog) I've changed my ways a little; I cannot now Run with you in the evenings along the shore, Except in a kind of dream; and you, if you dream a moment, You see me there. So leave awhile the paw-marks on the front door Where I used to scratch to go out or in, And you'd soon open; leave on the kitchen floor The marks of my drinking-pan. I cannot lie by your fire as I used to do On the warm stone, Nor at the foot of your bed; no, all the night through I lie alone. But your kind thought has laid me less than six feet Outside your window where firelight so often plays, And where you sit to read--and I fear often grieving for me-- Every night your lamplight lies on my place. You, man and woman, live so long, it is hard To think of you ever dying A little dog would get tired, living so long. I hope that when you are lying Under the ground like me your lives will appear As good and joyful as mine. No, dear, that's too much hope: you are not so well cared for As I have been. And never have known the passionate undivided Fidelities that I knew. Your minds are perhaps too active, too many-sided. . . . But to me you were true. You were never masters, but friends. I was your friend. I loved you well, and was loved. Deep love endures To the end and far past the end. If this is my end, I am not lonely. I am not afraid. I am still yours. Robinson Jeffers, 1941 Dear Karianne, I still grieve for every Pup who ever graced our lives. Our most recently departed taught my son how to love. However can I thank him? Dear friends sent me this poem--I hope it offers you comfort as it has for me. I always say "he rescued us"! I know your many happy memories will sustain you; it just takes a while for the gratitude to overtake the pain of losing him. Best wishes to your family.

  113. Image for Lynn Spencer Lynn Spencer

    Oh honey, I am so very sorry to hear about Buddy...I've been there too many times...I have a Puddles-sized hole in my heart and a Brandy-sized hole in my heart and an Alex-sized hole in my heart...Just love him...that's all he wants. My thoughts and prayers coming your way. Hugs, Lynn

  114. Image for Linda Linda

    My daughter and family lost their sweet Maddie yesterday. She has been crying on and off all day. Jenny and her husband got Maddie the first year they married and when she became pregnant with our first grandchild, she cried because she was worried she wouldn't love the baby as much as Maddie....well, 11 years later they laid her to rest today...we do get so attached.

  115. Image for Linda Linda

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I have Goldens too and love them dearly. Our 6 year old Golden passed away almost a year ago, he had cancer in his mouth. I had a Vet appointment on Monday morning to put him asleep but he died peacefully on Sunday afternoon. I miss him so much. I have another Golden who is 7 and yes I got a puppy to keep him company. I do believe we will see all of our pets in Heaven, for the Bible tells us there will be animals there. What a wonderful place that we are going to go to where all of our loved ones will be , humans and animals.....can't wait to see my husband and all of my dogs ! Praying for you and your family that He will give you peace.

  116. Image for Cecilia Cecilia

    Oh KariAnne, that's so sad. My heart is hurting for you and your family as you face life without Buddy. I'm sorry you are going through this. Love to Buddy and y'all.

  117. Image for Cheryl Collette-Victor Cheryl Collette-Victor

    I'm so very sorry to read your beautiful story about Buddy, your sweet family member. They tear at our heartstrings, they are the loves of our lives, the innocent ones who have no voice but have hearts ten times as big as ours. They love unconditionally and we mourn them. He was telling you he'd be ok. You gave him a beautiful family life, a home and unconditional love always and forever. Your story was my story on August 2017, I lost my 10 year old Sadie Girl, to Kidney Failure, that came on so suddenly. I wasn't ready to let her go but she let me know she was ready. RIP to our beautiful furry family members, whose time on this earth is way to short 🙏🐶🐶🙏💞💞

  118. Image for Sue Sue

    My heart goes out to you and your family because your Buddy is a part of your family same as your husband and children. Let your wonderful memories ease your pain.

  119. Image for Eileen C Eileen C

    We just went through this in September and it is heart breaking. We are sending you positive vibes and strength to say goodbye.

  120. Image for Dewena Dewena

    I am so sorry to read about your dear Buddy. It is very real to me, a sharp pain reminding me of October 24th when we unexpectedly had to say goodbye to our darling dachshund Milo and then 19 days later on Veteran's Day faced the same thing with his twin brother Otis. It still doesn't seem real, surely I can push the replay button and have the ending turn out differently. My heart goes out to you and your family, Dewena

  121. Image for Loryl Loryl

    We had to put our Aussie, Quigley down about this time last year. I am so sorry for all of you, especially Zac. Our animals babies are such a part of the family. They bring us such joy. But you will get through it. That does not mean you forget their gentle spirit, bringers of all things fun and sloppy kisses.

  122. Image for Karyn Karyn

    I am so sorry to hear about Buddy. As I sit her snuggling with my two pugs I can imagine how you feel. Our pets are certainly a part of our family and the unconditional love they give us is like no other. We are so blessed to share in their lives.. Sending you all lots of hugs.

  123. Image for Amy rush Amy rush

    So so sorry. It is never easy. They are our family and I have tears in my eyes. Love to you and your family. No words.

  124. Image for Alice Hanson Alice Hanson

    KariAnne, I am so so sorry. I loved our “Fred” so much. They are the glue that holds us. Love us unconditional. My prayers are with your whole family. ❣️Alice

  125. Image for Christopher Christopher

    Sending love from my furbabies and. I. It is never easy to lose a friend. My Mona fought cancer for 3 months before passing, i feel your hurt.

  126. Image for Angela Angela

    All dogs go to Heaven....they are truly here to make our lives more enjoyable on this earth. Prayers are with you and your family...and Buddy.

  127. Image for Mary Mary

    Bringing back memories of our boy Casper, it's so painful and hard to say goodby. I do believe dogs go to heaven, because God put them on the ark (a sign of being saved). Doesn't make it any easier ow, but does share a drop of hope in the midst of a heart-breaking time. Sending a hug to you and your family, and tell Zach I know it was your crying that made him cry ;)

  128. Image for Nancy Brewer Nancy Brewer

    It is never easy is it? I have lost several labs and stood silently by and the vet put my sisters horse down. and am thankful we can give our animal peace, and comfort, choosing to break our own hearts rather than let them suffer. The best you can do is make sure that happens before the pain gets too bad because you are never ready and the pain for you live on,,,,even when they are at peace. I say this from experience, having lost my black swan, i watched hatch and raised by hand, die is terror in my very arms. It is something I still shiver at the thought of, that neither I or the vet who was trying to help, could make his passing peaceful. Vets just did not know what to do and I forgive him, but I cannot forgive myself for letting it happen. I pray for your strength and all the love you can poor into Buddy and Zach and the rest of your family. Do not wait too long and be there,,, for it is your love and faces he will want to see last... when he is at peace.

  129. Image for NIcole NIcole

    I have never posted a response but your story that touches everyone of us who have shared in both the happiness and sadness of owning a pet prompted me to write. My supervisor recommended the audiobook 'Dogtripping" about a couple who rescue golden retrievers and who end up with 27 dogs traveling cross country. The story will melt your heart and make you laugh. This might be good therapy for you, your family, and your followers. Wishing you peace and sweet memories.

  130. Image for Mary-The Boondocks Blog Mary-The Boondocks Blog

    Aww KariAnne and I too am crying along with all of you. I lost my sweet Michelle to cancer last year and it was not pretty. But I would rather that she not suffer. Your Buddy is a wonderful friend. Hugs to you.

  131. Image for April Russell April Russell

    KariAnne & the Whole Family, I am so very sorry for your loss. We lost one of our rescue rotties late summer. Rescues are the best. We rescued another in her memory. Rescue another. It really helps to know you are doing something good in his memory. xxoo

  132. Image for Jennifer Bluhm Jennifer Bluhm

    So sorry. We lost our precious Goldendoodle in July and I still feel sad. Dogs are so special. They teach us what love should motivate us to do. Their love is pure and their loyalty is unquestionable. They are our best teachers. Please accept my deepest sympathy.

  133. Image for Deborah Deborah

    I am balling my eyes out for you, your family and Buddy💕My heart breaks....a dog’s love is so unconditional. I sit here in my new home in Florida missing my 14 yr old Muffy who is staying with my sister in KY. We’re going back to KY for Christmas and I should bring Muffy back with me....but now I have the concern about my widowed sister who loves our Muffy also. She’s such a companion to her. What to do? I miss her terribly too. But we travel a lot so the best thing to do is let our Muff live out a few more yrs with my sister keeping each other in constant company. Means I wouldn’t be there in the end... God bless you and your family, KariAnne. You are in my thoughts and prayers🙏

  134. Image for Jeannine Jeannine

    My dear friend, My love and prayers go to your beautiful family. We also just lost our beloved dog of 17 years. He was my daughters dog but we all loved him dearly. He will never be replaced in our hearts so I understand your loss and how your all feeling right now. There's a beautiful book titled All Gods Creatures Go To Heaven. I read it each time we have lost one of our pets. There's a picture of a white fluffy dog in the book and that's what led me to find our next dog after losing our Shellie. That white fluffy dog came to be our Odie of 17 years. Give it time. There are so Many 4 leg friends that need our love and your children our full of that love . I'm sorry this is so long but I just wish I could give you all a big hug. I understand what your going through. It will get better. Have a blessed day, Jeannine

  135. Image for Jeannie Jeannie

    I am SO sorry. I just lost my Riley November 13. A beautiful Golden retreiver/English lab mix. He was fine & then ... Cancer. I bawled for hours... & still do at odd times. And now, of course.

  136. Image for Terry Cross Terry Cross

    It doesn't matter how long we have them Karianne, it's just never long enough and when they leave us it brings the most devasting grief. My sweet Agatha has been having problems with her heart and Monday at the state veterinary hospital I listened to news that made my heart send up urgent prayers for this little dog that I love so much. My prayers to you all as you mourn that beautiful life. I pray God sends you another furry bundle to love, you are such dog lovers, don't wait too long, it's so hard to be without them.

  137. Image for Nancy Nancy

    I'm so sorry to hear about your sweet dog. I know how you feel. With your recent move and everything else you have on your plate it must be even harder. Many, many feelings. Please take all the time you need to mourn, to lather love on your children and husband. That is so important. Thank you for sharing with us. Imagine a huge hug from me, praying for your family.

  138. Image for Ellen Ellen

    Crap... not the news you want at Christmastime. We had the same thing happen last year with our 11 year old - lymphoma. Had to say goodbye on Christmas eve -the hardest thing I ever did. The bad thing is every Christmas you'll be thinking of him. The good thing is every Christmas you'll be thinking of him. Remember the good times, and give him everything special you can think of right now so you can make it the best goodbye possible. Prayers for you and your family....

  139. Image for Susan Susan

    "Not a single dog has ever lived long enough" I've been where you are in the vets office. I'm so sorry. It's been 4 years since we lost our girl and I still remember the exact moment like it was yesterday, hearing that it was cancer. I'm sending love to your family in such a difficult time.

  140. Image for Moriah Moriah

    We have two Goldens - one is a rescue. I’m crying for y’all My heart hurts with yours. Praying for Buddy and your family.

  141. Image for Betsy in NC Betsy in NC

    I'm so very sorry to read this, I wasn't going to because I could tell from the title and photo what you were going to say and knew how I'd react. We lost Jake, our Golden, 5 Thanksgivings ago and it still feels like it just happened. Wishing you and your family peace, knowing that you've done your best for Buddy, and joy for having him in your life. God bless.

  142. Image for Becky Cassera Becky Cassera

    My heart hurts for the loss of your fur baby. Many prayers go out to your family at such a tragic and heartbreaking time. Hugs.

  143. Image for MARY-ANN (FROM CANADA!) MARY-ANN (FROM CANADA!)

    KariAnne, I am so sorry to read about your precious Buddy. You will have many precious memories of your Buddy. We will definitely keep you -- and that dear family of yours -- in our prayers. It is just so hard to lose a beloved pet and it leaves a real ache in your hearts. This Christmas, frame a picture of your Buddy and put it on your tree! Each time you look at your tree you will all be reminded of your precious Buddy whom you all loved so very much. We pray that God will comfort you all during this difficult time. May your hearts be flooded with all those precious memories! Thinking of you all! Blessings!

  144. Image for Debrah Debrah

    Dearest Karianne, My heart wept when I read your story of your wonderful pet Buddy. In the years my husband and I have been together(43 years 4 months) we have had 9 happy, crazy wonderful dachshunds that grew up with our 3 children and touched us deeply with their love, devotion, and sometimes exasperating personalities. .They all enriched our loves and made us realize the joy and wonder of unconditional love. All but 2 of our "hoard" were rescues who helped us know making a place in our lives for those bundles of energy who needed a safe home was always a better exchange for our family. At each stage of our children's lives there was one of our dogs who did amazing things for them. Shadow waited up at the end of the hallway for our oldest to come home after a night out. Another who always wanted to "share" our son's meal or snack and wasn't afraid to help himself when Joshua wasn't watching. Patch, who was so devoted to our youngest, that she convinced Beth to let her sleep on the end of her bed (wink). They all had our hearts and are still missed to this day. We determine to do with these pets that idea of stewardship that God asks of us for His creation. I share your heartache but also know when the time is right you may find that special one who will be the piece that fits. By the way, I do believe like the title of the movie from several years ago that "All Dogs Do Go To Heaven" and wait patiently at the end of the hall for us to come Home. Blessings, Debrah

  145. Image for Pat Pat

    I'm so very sorry for your precious fur baby. I lost my precious boy in April and my heart still hurts. We just never have them long enough. xo

  146. Image for jae jae

    My heart aches for your loss. Just went through the same thing with our 8 year old pet. she is always in our hearts. Wonderful that You rescued Buddy and gave him many years of love and adoration. He will always be a part of Thistlewood.

  147. Image for June M. June M.

    So sorry for your family loss Karianne. Tears welled up and flowed as I read, knowing the pain and the heartache Our fur babies leave their paw prints on our hearts. ((( )))

  148. Image for Yvonne @ StoneGable Yvonne @ StoneGable

    My heart goes out to you and your family. We have been there. And when you have been there you understand. I wish I could hug you and I wish I had known Buddy. God bless your family in this very tough time. LOVE you, friend! xo Yvonne

  149. Image for Doc Marty Doc Marty

    As a vet, I live this on a weekly basis. I hurt for you and for Buddy. We understand your pain and it is good for me to read this. I have to hold it together for my patients and clients. But reading this I can shed some tears..

  150. Image for Debbie Debbie

    I'm so sorry to hear the sad news of your Buddy. Our beloved black lab, Ceile, died at the age of 14 years, two months. That was almost eight years ago and it still fills me with sadness. But then I think of how lucky we were to have her for all those years and how all our lives were enriched. That's what we need to hold on to. You and your family are in my prayers.

  151. Image for Suzie Suzie

    KariAnn, I am praying for your sweet, wonderful Buddy and all the Wood family. Try to focus on the time you have with Buddy and take comfort in the fact that you have given him the most wonderful home. We adopted a four year old Golden because her family decided they just didn’t want her anymore. If you can imagine. She entered our life one beautiful summer day, nine years later with no warning, she left us on a rainy spring afternoon, due to cancer. She was my best friend, she loved me unconditionally. That is the blessing of pets, they love unconditionally, As humans there is a lot we could learn from animals. God Bless you and Buddy. 🙏

  152. Image for Sue in Texas Sue in Texas

    I am so sorry for your family and Buddy. It is such a hard time for all of you. I really love your fine supportive young man, Zack. A mom needs his love especially at times like this.

  153. Image for Kelly Knox Kelly Knox

    So very, very, sorry, Karianne. Been there, done that. My heart goes out to you and your precious family. Hugs, love and comfort coming your way.... <3

  154. Image for Jeannie Gray Jeannie Gray

    I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. We lost our beloved Max a few months ago, also to cancer. Just because they have 4 legs instead of 2 doesn't make them any less of a family member. My thoughts & prayers go out to you and your family.

  155. Image for Carole Carole

    I feel your hurt and pain so very deeply right now. Our cat Pantera was diagnosed with kidney disease a few months back. We were treating him (sub-q fluids, etc), and he was doing well, until a couple of weeks ago, and then he just, wasn't. I knew this cat, he was my velcro, my ever present friend. He wasn't feeling well. Things weren't right. On Tuesday morning we took him to the vet for a check up. Suffice it to say, we had a decision to make. So, we brought him home to spend a couple of hours of snuggling with, and in the evening the vet came by. I've cried so much my head hurts. And this isn't the first time that we've been through this, but there are those animals that are super special. Pantera was one of those. And Buddy is one of those. We'll remember their places in our families always. Eventually, the good memories will seep back in, and we'll smile, and remember, without tears, but with love. The love they gave us tenfold in their short time with us. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

  156. Image for Kathy Kathy

    Oh my goodness, your story caught me off guard and I'm sitting in a puddle of tears right now. I relate a little too well. A year ago my best little furry buddy passed away. He was 16 years old. Riley was my constant companion, my best, best friend ever in my life. He left me around Christmas time. This time of year is a reminder of that sad day, but mostly of the love he always gave. A little grave outside my bedroom doors settles my anxious heart down whenever I'm missing him especially hard. I'm so sorry for your loss. These little guys are a part of our family! A huge part of our hearts. Losing them hurts. I believe they go to a special place. And one day we will see them again. I have lots of "Buddys" waiting! I'll be praying for you and your family. It's a tough thing. Time makes it better. But memories make it all okay in the end. Hang a big picture of him somewhere where he can continue to make you smile every day. Take care. Now for that box of kleenex.

  157. Image for Betty in Arlington Betty in Arlington

    Memory eternal of Buddy. We just lost Quincy, a 17 year old Rhodesian Ridgeback, who suffered when we carried her up and down the stairs. The group of vets at https://www.lapoflove.com/ helped with her pain and provided us with a loving care for Quincy. It's so hard to lose a member of the family; we feel for you Zack! It's ok to cry; I am crying, too, writing this note to your mom.

  158. Image for Kenna Kenna

    I am so sorry to hear about your sweet pup. We lost our first pup to cancer also. It is so hard to lose a beloved pet. We have since had to put 1 more down and still have 1 pup at home. It never gets easier for us or our kiddos, but we wouldn't give up our time with these furry family members..

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