I can’t believe I’m typing this post.
Never, ever, ever, ever in a million years did I ever imagine that I would sit down in front of the computer with trembling fingers, a messy bun, yoga pants, a cup of coffee and share what I’m about to tell you.
It all seems a little surreal.
My fingers are shaking.
My heart is pounding.
I’m happy and excited and sad and wistful and thrilled and joyful and overwhelmed and nervous about the roller coaster ride we are about to hop on.
The train has officially left the station.
Are you ready?
Are you sitting down for the news?
Can we still be friends if I tell you that….
….WE ARE MOVING.
I literally do not even know where to begin this post so I’ll go all Julie Andrews and start at the beginning.
It’s a really good place to start.
Last year we had some stuff happen with our extended family. Stuff that was overwhelming. Stuff that scared us. Stuff that sat us down and had a talk and got all serious on us and told us that we might want to think about being closer to home.
Our family needed us to show up and be counted.
And suddenly, Kentucky was too far away.
So we started talking about moving.
What? US MOVE? That wasn’t in the plan. Kentucky was our forever home. We have a farmhouse and a gatehouse and a business and acres of land and countryside and stars and hay bales and winding country roads.
And for five years I have written a blog about our farmhouse and all that goes with it.
I wasn’t sure if I was ready to give it all up.
I put on an apron and asked myself what Laura Ingalls would do if Carrie and Mary and Grace and Ma and Pa needed her.
And so, just like Laura, I’m coming home.
This is the home of my childhood.
This is where I grew up.
I have thrown open this backdoor more times that I can even count.
Remember when my mother sold it?
You can read all about moving and my wedding dress and dear Abby and a mirror here.
This is the house where I met my future husband who wasn’t even my boyfriend yet on the back porch.
This is the house where he first kissed me goodnight.
This is the house I stood in front of the bathroom mirror on my wedding day.
This is the house where I brought my children home from the hospital.
This is the house where they stamped their tiny hand prints in the driveway when my mother and father had a new driveway poured.
This is the house where I’ve laughed and loved and giggled and shared more joy than a person should be allowed in a lifetime.
This is my home.
I thought it was lost forever.
I thought I’d never walk the halls again.
I thought I’d never celebrate another Christmas or Thanksgiving or birthday or family breakfast here.
Until six months ago when we talked about moving back to Texas and I randomly called up the new owners and asked them if they would sell it.
I did it on a whim. I had no idea what they’d say. I had no idea if they’d even answer the phone.
It wasn’t on the market.
They didn’t really know me and as far as I knew they weren’t planning on selling it.
But I stepped out on faith and dialed the phone.
When the current owner answered the phone, I explained who I was and told her my story and told her we might be moving back and that I had been in a relationship with that house since add-a-bead necklaces were a thing. Would she? Could she? Might she be interested in selling it?
And to my surprise.
To my joy.
To my almost fainting on the phone at that moment….
….she said yes.
CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE IT?
SHE SAID YES.
And now a new chapter begins.
Here in these rooms where it all started.
Here are a few pictures I took this weekend of the house.
These are the befores.
This is the staircase I stood on and waited for Santa Claus to show up every Christmas morning.
This is the living room where I fought with my sisters and brothers and watched season after season of American Idol.
This is where my children had their first Christmas.
These are the floors where my oldest son took his first steps.
This is the dining room.
This is where I ate breakfast before school every morning.
This is where I celebrated almost every Thanksgiving dinner on the planet.
This is the downstairs bathroom.
This is where I put on my makeup before school.
This is where I stood in my wedding dress on my wedding day.
And this was my father’s office.
I can remember sitting in this room and pouring out my heart to him. I’d tell him the troubles of the world and he’d put down his papers and push his glasses up on top of his nose and lend me a sympathetic ear and a funny story and all the cares of the day would melt away.
When I walk in here now and squint, I can almost see him smile.
His heart is in every corner of this room.
This room is where I’ll write my books and post my posts and share my stories and tell my tales and start a brand new chapter of my life.
I can’t believe it.
I wish I could type the tears running down my face. I wish I could type my joy. I wish could type the mix of emotions tiptoeing across my heart.
But I can’t.
So I’ll say it the only way I know how.
We are finally home.
PS There are so many questions I left unanswered on this post.
I get it.
This was a lot to take in on a Monday morning. I’ll be sharing way more of the house and all the befores and 2018 will be the year of makeovers. I can’t wait to take you on the house renovation journey of a lifetime.
PPS I know you are wondering about Thistlewood. I’ll leave that story for another day.
PPPS I took this picture in the driveway this morning.
These are one set of the twin’s tiny handprints.
Just waiting for us to return. 🙂